Buddha's Words
I try to keep in mind
that when the Buddha attained realization he sat in the forest, unwinking and
alone, hesitant to explain what he had discovered. And I try to keep in mind
that despite his silence, perhaps the Buddha did teach this nectar-like dharma having
attained enlightenment, expounding effortlessly the natural of his realization;
and his consolation to his disciples at the time of his passing that in the
times to come, he would appear as the very words of dharma, in that each letter
would be a embodiment of himself, and, also, his warning that if anyone were to
see his body or hear his teachings, they would not have truly met him.
The dharma is
described to be simplicity beyond words and form and a vastness that
encompasses it all; a reality and experience far too uncomplicated and far too
complex to think of approaching intellectually. Yet, the Buddha did teach his
profound realization, and with unworldly compassion and insight he and his
disciples joyfully took up the project of explaining the truth of the path.
With it, monasteries were constructed, masses enrobed and encouraged,
hermitages settled and households enriched by these teachings he, the Buddha,
had no words for at first. No sign or gesture, word or phrase could or would
ever express it, yet the Four Truths were taught and the precious wheel was
spun with the inertia of blessings and faith.
I feel I have little
to say concerning my studies. As can be clearly seen, these teachings are
transmitted in a way that lends itself to a harmonious paradox, an ultimate
conclusion beyond concept, yet nested in the familiarity of word and action. A
couple years have passed and I am feeling at home in this environment. Despite
our common struggles, I feel a mutual zeal of aspiration to truly benefit from
what is being taught in this wonderful shedra, a quality rare and precious.
Unfortunately, I am not without affliction and furthermore find pride and
jealousy await my every success and failure; a sad situation I am hoping can be
remedied and put to rest. Nonetheless, I feel so fortunate and have great appreciation
for my teachers and fellow classmates — those who have strived to have me engage
with these teachings. The compassion required to support us students is
overwhelming, it will be a close to impossible task of repaying such kindness.
Of course, it is my
wish to progress and come to a deep and thorough understanding of these
teachings, an aspiration far too vast for a single lifetime, but perhaps
possible by way of experiencing its profundity. I am encouraged to continue and
happily await what is to come.
~ Kaleb from USA
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