Untitled No.1
Being a natural born introvert I find it somewhat difficult to
talk about myself, but I gladly take this as an opportunity to exercise some
honest introspection and self-inquiry. If you are unfortunate enough to find
yourself reading this incoherent blabber at present, I pray that it may provide
you some brief distraction or entertainment at the least.
My first year at RYI (2014-2015) was, if one is honest; a very
difficult and uncomfortable experience. Having spent my entire life in the US
nothing could have ever prepared me for this- Nepal is simply another planet.
Personally, I find the endeavor of living and studying in Boudha very
challenging; however I must admit- this endeavor has now proven to be truly
worthwhile and infinity rewarding.
My experience here at RYI has really changed me allot. In merely
one year; I can honestly say that I will never be the same person again and I
cannot take any of the credit myself. Nepal, replete with all its indescribable
beauty and insanity is a harsh and relentless teacher- an experience that will
perpetually force you to face-up to all your hopes, fears and everything you’ve
ever taken for granted. An experience that will continually offer you an
opportunity to vividly comprehend the inherent perfection and beauty of every
moment- in all of its overwhelming insanity and chaos.
The academic program here at RYI is very intense; a process that
will demand your sincere interest and effort in order to succeed. Looking back
at my experience last year, I realize how mistaken my approach was to full-time
study. Previously, I forced myself to study in a very fabricated manner, a
process that was always saturated by either hope of getting ahead -or-fear of
falling behind. There is certainly allot to do and manage being a full-time
student here at RYI, and if you let yourself get to serious about it all- life
may may very well turn into an continual flow of anxiety, as it did for me.
There is a depth and richness present within each day, every class, every
assignment, every moment of experience- that simply cannot be appreciated if
you get into the cycle of hope-fear living and study.
My heart-felt advice to anyone who may find themselves blown to
RYI by the winds of karma; is to avoid getting into inflexible habits while living
and studying here in Boudha. Don’t eat the same thing over and over again,
taste everything. Don’t walk the same paths over and over again, explore
everywhere. Don’t cling to familiar people and places all the time, talk to
strangers and get lost for awhile. Put simply; challenge yourself to face
everything that makes uncomfortable...
Anyway, I hope all of this delirious babbling is superfluous in
the sense that you don’t have a natural inclination for anxiety and taking
yourself and studies to seriously, like myself. If you can however relate to
this and find yourself uptight and not enjoying life at present; please let-go
and relax your shoulders; acknowledge just how infinitesimal your really are,
and how your life is going to be over in a cosmic millisecond.
~Pema from USA
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